Wednesday, July 20, 2011

daily word

“It is not our love for God; it is God’s love for us in sending his Son to be the way to take away our sins.” I John 4:10

Salvation is God-given, God-driven, God-empowered, and God-originated. The gift is not from man to God. It is from God to man . . . Grace is created by God and given to man.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

giving up on fb


yesterday i deactivated my fb account. this was not a decision i thought or contemplated over for hours/days/months. it was one that happened almost rashly :) although i have appreciated the connection fb has allowed me to have with friends and family around the country. the reality is, i found myself depending on those pseudo connections, updates, pictures, etc. to fulfill my need for connection. when the truth is, i wasn't really connecting with anyone beyond a very surface level. i don't want surface level relationships and i have no desire to pursue an illusion of friendship/connection with people. my hearts desire is to build authentic relationships with people who desire to live life with me; the good, bad, and even ugly.

i may choose to reactivate my account at some point. but, for now, i think the better option is to pick up the phone, send an email, play with my kids, or even set up a date to go out for coffee.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

market/soccer saturday

ahhhhhh.....the opening of the muskegon farmers market warmed my heart today. even though i knew most of the produce wasn't local i was able to purchase spring lettuce (clipped yesterday) and carrots and potatoes that had been stored through the winter by a local farmer. i also found my way back to the market to buy some brats from creswick farms for dinner tonight. i've already got the buns rising and can't wait to eat them up!




it was all i could do not to buy a bunch of flowers. however, i did hold back since i haven't quite figured out our budget for flowers and what i would like to do yet - but, they were soooo wonderful to see.


one of the tough things about having all three kids playing soccer is that they all play at different times, fields, and even cities depending on the week. i'm not sure i'm going to be able to make it to a single one of lilly's games this year. fortunately dave is her coach and so he is at all her games!


the boys playing out on their fields. caleb's team lost 3-2, luke's team won 4-2 and lilly's team also won 6-2 this week. way to go!!!

Friday, April 29, 2011

the long wait is over!

it has been a long - hard - snowy - wet - cold - winter! and although we have had some nice days over the last several weeks and the grass is turning greener and buds are popping up all over the place and the daffodils, tulips and (my favorite) lilly of the valley are beginning to bloom. the most significant sign to the end of winter is the opening of the farmers market. YEAH!!! tomorrow is the opening day for the muskegon farmers market!! i can't wait to walk the aisles and smell the fresh cut flowers and see all the produce (although it may be few). i can't wait for the week to come that i won't have to grace the doors of a meijers - I AM SOOOO EXCITED!

on a similar note, i am planning on putting in my garden next week. i am already planning on doubling the amount of space i did last year and having one plot specifically for herbs and the rest mostly for tomatoes and then cucumbers, zucchini, squash. my goal is to can as many tomatoes as i possibly can by the end of summer to hopefully get our family through another LONG winter.

so, if you live in the muskegon area go out and support the local farmers market tomorrow!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

milk run musings

i was making my weekly "milk run" this past week and realized something, that i thought, was pretty funny. **side note: for those of you who don't know, we joined a cow/herd sharing program at the beginning of the year. what this means; we are part owners of a cow/herd on a dairy farm which allows us to obtain raw milk (as a by-product of the cows) directly from the farm. **

on to the funny observation...
the farm we go to is Green Pastures Farm and Grassfields (where we buy all our eggs & meat) in coopersville. now, this is a very convenient stop for me since i work in allendale three days a week and drive straight through coopersville. if you've ever driven down 68th street (coopersville exit) you are immediately aware of a couple of things, first, the smell - mostly due to the trash dump and second, the farmland. now, i drive this drive ALL the time and it wasn't until yesterday on my milk run that i observed something else upon passing another dairy farm (i don't even remember the name) in which i could see all the cows under a large pavilion one right next to the other eating out of troughs. no idea how many of them were crowded in the space - but it struck me. i didn't get more than a mile further down the road when i came upon another farm (not sure of the name or what they do with their cows) but they too were eating out of troughs, however had more room to move and a hay pile in the center of their "pen" to choose to eat from as well as a pavilion to walk under and lay down. hmmm, i thought as i made the turn to our farm and then i literally laughed out loud as i looked and saw "our" cows grazing in the pastures eating grass, walking around, laying around. i'm pretty sure they were enjoying the day :) in that split second i realized, again, that we are making the right choice for our family and how grateful i am to have this as an option.

so, not sure if you think we are crazy or not but if anyone is looking for more info i'd be happy to answer any questions or at the very least tell you more about our experience.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

new eyes...


we found out a couple of weeks ago that luke needed glasses. he is the exact same age both caleb and dave were when they first found out that glasses/contacts would be a part of their life. we ordered the frames online (great pricing!) and had the script filled today. i'm so happy he is excited about them and isn't at all apprehensive about his new accessory.


Friday, March 11, 2011

blowing it

i blew it today. no, i didn't stink out my house. i blew it with my husband. the person whom i want everyday to know that i love deeper today than yesterday. the person i share children with. the person i treasure above all others on earth. and still i blow it.... BIG....at times. what is it in us that makes us more aware of ourselves, our needs, insecurities, wants, desires, etc. that allows us to "fail" so miserably with the ones we love the most. the worst part about today is that i somehow feel justified in my actions and emotions. i find myself thinking things like, "didn't he hear me when i said..." or "he did this more for him than for me". marriage is hard, and i am reminded of that today. i am reminded of the fact that i will probably cry as much as i laugh. that i will feel anger for as much as i feel joy. that my kids will hate and love me all at the same time now and as they grow older. that dave will fail me as many times as i fail him. that life is hard.

hmmmm....i'm obviously having quite a day. anyone else out there ever feel like this?

Monday, March 07, 2011

creative jar

it seems the most common phrase i hear lately is, "mom, what can i do?" or "i'm bored!". although the easiest solution at times is to let them play on the computer, watch tv or play video games, dave and i have felt compelled not to let them fill their free time with too much of any of that and help them pursue other creative ideas. in theory, this sounds like a great idea, right? however, the execution is much more difficult when the question, "can i watch tv?" comes when i'm in the middle of making dinner and i can't come up with a creative idea to save my life.

my solution has come in a creative jar. dave and i spent an evening this past week coming up with 20 or so different creative ideas and put them on little slips of paper and then inside a glass jar, which now sits on our kitchen counter. the only rule to the creative jar is that if you pull it you have to do it. we promised the kids there are only fun/creative tasks nothing like cleaning the toilet.

the kids are so excited about our new game and couldn't wait to dig-in to the jar and pull their first slip. here is a snapshot of what each of them created. caleb had to create a recipe he would like to make and write/draw it out. you may not be able to see it clearly in the photo, but he made up "caleb's kung pow serano dish". lilly's slip required she make a picture only using hole punches. because she became really overwhelmed by the idea of gluing down a million tiny circles i decided to let her use any of the larger punches i had. she made a house. luke's creative pull was to make a time capsule and map. i forgot to take a picture of his actual time capsule before he buried it in the backyard. but, i did get a shot of his map, which says, "open on march 6th, 2016".

i know we are going to go through this jar rather quickly - and it took us a long time to come up with ideas we did. i would love any suggestions you might have!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

would you rather?

all weekend i've thought about the fact that i should be in LA right now - working the oscars with my dear friend. however, here i am - still in muskegon under yet another foot of snow (ok, maybe i'm exaggerating a little bit, but not much). i've thought about how much fun it would be to see all those celebs walking the red carpet all decked out. my hearts desire is to get a photo of me with bob newhart (since missing an opportunity at the emmys last year!). my mind has raced with all the fun i know i'm missing out on. since embracing the fact that i wasn't going to find a flight to LA for under $450 i have been playing the "would you rather?" game in my head - it has gone something like this....

would you rather be cleaning the toilet or telling brad pit where to sit?
would you rather be watching more snow fall or be in a tank top?
would you rather be vacuuming or directing on the red carpet?
would you rather be yelling at the kids are hanging out with your friend?
etc......

however, i have to say in the midst of the disappointment i have had such a blessed weekend celebrating with friends, hanging out with my family and watching season 3 of alias. although, i may have missed out on one opportunity i had others that made up for it ten fold including making oreo cupcakes with my little girl! as i sit here thinking about how we laughed and made such a mess together and out of nowhere telling me, "i love you mommy" i realized how much i would have missed out on had i not been here. so, as i sit and write this i am playing a new game of "would you rather"....

would you rather laugh, sing, dance, create, bake with lilly or "work" the oscars?
would you rather watch caleb read his story or watch fake smiles & bodies walk a red carpet?
would you rather celebrate a 33rd & 1st birthday of dear friends or watch as people pretend to be friends?
would you rather have to wear a winter coat in MI or be around for the 1st snow in over 30years in LA?

needless to say, i have had an amazing weekend and i am so thankful for my life, friends and family. i also realized the most disappointing part about not being able to go had very little to do with the oscars and everything to do with "being" with my dear friend. at least we have next year :)

here is the link to where i found the recipe for the cupcakes - they are DELICIOUS!!!!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

"lost in new york" by caleb diller


today we joined many other families from churchill elementary for the 2nd annual book fair at barnes & noble. caleb was one of many students who was picked to read a story they had written. although he was very nervous - he did a wonderful job. i'm so proud of him! for you proud grandparents, dave video taped his reading and you can view it here.


Friday, February 25, 2011

granola time

our family LOVES granola. so, i have been working on creating a great granola recipe that everyone will enjoy. the best part about making granola is that you can't really screw it up and you can add just about anything you want to the mixture. i thought it may be fun to share lilly's and mines most recent granola concoction (the best, to date, if i don't say so myself).

Ingredients
4c. old fashioned oats
1/2c. sliced almonds
1/2c. unsalted sunflower seeds
1/2c. unsalted raw pumpkin seeds
1/2c. light brown sugar
1/2 tsp. salt
1 tsp. cinnamon
1/4 c. veggie oil
1/4 c. honey
1 tsp. vanilla

Directions
Preheat oven to 300 degrees. Mix oats, nuts, brown sugar, salt & cinnamon. In a small saucepan warm (don't boil) oil and honey, whisk in vanilla.

Pour honey mixture over oat mixture and stir well with wooden spoon. We use our hands to mix it too - it is REALLY important to make sure the wet and dry mixtures are evenly distributed. Spread granola over a large jelly roll pan.

Bake for 40 mins - stirring gently every 10 mins. DON'T OVER COOK! we made this mistake the first time we made it :) if you are adding and dried fruit add it after it is cooked.

Let cool completely on wire rack and then ENJOY!!


Let me know if you decide to make it - I would love to hear how your next batch turns out. If you are a mom with kids this is a GREAT recipe to make together, lots of measuring, pouring, mixing with relatively little mess!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Thank You For This Chicken

My hubby, Dave, posted the following earlier this week on his blog and I thought it appropriate to share on my blog too :) I haven't really wanted to delve into sharing about our choice over the last couple of months to drastically change how and what we eat. Mostly because I don't think I wanted the added pressure to "live up" to whatever precedence I may be setting for our family. With that said, I was blessed to read what Dave wrote this past week and realized that we have made some pretty drastic changes in our food preparation and consumption and that this is something to celebrate not hide from.

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Recently at the dinner table our son Luke offered the prayer before dinner and surprised me with his words, “Dear God, thank you for this chicken, the farm it came from, and please look after all of the other animals.” In this prayer Luke reminded us of some things we had forgotten.

Our food comes from somewhere.

This may seem like a no-brainer, but with all of the instant “food” so readily available to us, it becomes easy to forget (or even know) where our food comes from.

In being reminded that our food has an origin, we’ve begun asking: “Where does our food come from?” Asking this question has been a bit like opening Pandora’s Box. “Just exactly what kind of plant grows a Twinkie?”, “Do these cookies really come from tree-dwelling elves?”, and “If this apple is labeled, ‘organic’, then what kind of apple is this?… ‘Industrial’?”

Our questions have led us to make some changes in the food we purchase. Each Tuesday Misty stops by Grassfields Farm on her way home from work to pick up milk, eggs, and whatever meat they have available (we started back in January). After our first experience we instantly appreciated the taste and quality of the food but even more have grown to appreciate being able to build a relationship with those who grow/raise our food. Participating in this local farm has reminded us that we are part of a bigger creation and that we have a responsibility (and privilege) to steward what God has made.

I recognize it is in part due to our “affluence” that we have the opportunity/choice to purchase food from a local farm. Not everyone has the means of transportation to connect them to locally grown food (we live in a part of the country where farms are still common, unlike many of our cities which have become “food deserts”). Further, fresh/clean/whole food is more expensive (a cheeseburger from McD’s is 99 cents, and a head of broccoli costs close to 2 dollars). As a result, we’ve had to make some choices in the food (and amount) we purchase.

Instead of buying 2lbs of beef from the grocery store we purchase only 1 lb. at the same price from the farm. In buying less food we have begun to look at what we eat differently. Don’t get me wrong, we have plenty to eat, but having to purchase less food means that we cannot afford to think of food in terms of “mindless consumption”, instead food, animals, and the farms they come from become a “gift”.

Another gift of purchasing local food has meant that we’ve had more prep-time in preparing meals. At first this may sound more like a chore (we are all busy with the hurriedness of life) however, purchasing ingredients to make our meals has caused us to slow down. Lilly, peeling carrots for dinner, has developed a deeper appreciation for the food we eat and Caleb, chopping lettuce for salads, has caused him to be more curious about eating “leafy greens”. Instead of Mom “heating up dinner” our meals have become a family affair, full of conversation and meaning.

Is this something we do each night? No. We still have evenings where soccer games and gymnastics cause us to eat on the run, but those times are becoming less and less. We may never be able to fully live off of locally grown food however our hope is that as we do our part to steward the food resources in front of us we are able to create better, more intimate connections with our community, our kids, and our Creator.

That is something to be thankful for.
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well said dave!!


Thursday, November 11, 2010

you & me

it has been FOREVER since i last blogged. i don't have any real excuse except that life is busy. but, whose isn't? so, in true "misty" form i thought i would just dive back in with this photo.

we recently went on a family photo-shoot with my dad and not only had a lot of fun but came away with some great pictures. i absolutely fell in love with this one and had fun editing it too. dave and i celebrated our 11th anniversary back in september. there aren't enough words to communicate properly how much i love him and how precious our marriage and friendship is. i consider every day a blessing and honor to be walking through life together.

Thursday, September 09, 2010

first day of school 2010

i figured there was no better time than now to start blogging again, so here i go...... this week the kids started school. we have had an AMAZING summer full of fun, friends and family and we have enjoyed it to the fullest. now that school is upon us i am excited for the chaos to begin.
we have taken this same picture since caleb was in kindergarten - how fast time goes by!

luke started 3rd grade this year. he was the most nervous out of the bunch in the morning but came home with nothing but excitement in his voice for the upcoming year. i am so proud of him and how hard he has worked over the summer to be as ready as he could be for the upcoming school year.caleb is in the fifth grade. he likes to remind me that in only four short years he will be a freshman in highschool. he loves being back at school with his friends and can't wait for the challenges that come with being a fifth grader.

sweet lilly jane started 2nd grade. as many of you know this was a hard decision over the last year - not knowing whether we should move her on or keep her back to repeat 1st grade. as dave and i pulled away after dropping them off on their second day we both knew we made the right choice to move her on. she has progressed by leaps and bounds academically over the course of the summer and she was probably the most excited out of all the kids about going back to school and learning new things. i am so proud of her!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

recording with gabe

so, i had the very fun opportunity to record with gabe davidson (aka: brian leibrandt). we did a cover of "hallelujah" together and i sang back up on several of his other songs. although i sing often in the shower, church and around the house i don't do a lot of recording - so, i had to share! click here to listen/buy the cd "less is more" - gabe did a great job!!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

preparing for tomorrow

i am a big fan of getting as much done today as you can in anticipation of tomorrow. a number of years ago i was introduced to flylady and our families household changed dramatically as a result. some of her main points is to shine your sink before bed, get dressed and tie your shoes in the morning and do whatever you can to prepare for tomorrow, today. some of the other things we have enlisted into our household routine based of the flylady regimen is to clean using a timer (15 mins. max per room), instead of cleaning we call it "house blessing", creating and following a weekly menu. i am thankful for a husband and kids (note pic of kids packing their lunches for tomorrow) that is very helpful in maintaining our household with me and for the help flylady has given me over the years to let go of the perfection of maintaining a household. in it i have found peace and feel as though i am able to actually "live" in our home and enjoy our household to the fullest - or at least most days :)

Friday, February 26, 2010

Oh dear

in my attempt to play my 2nd game of soccer i ran out on the field pre-game to warm up and kick the ball around. and then it happend, "ouch", i felt a snap in my quad and in that split second i was faced with the decision to fall on the ground and cry or stand there and smile until dave noticed that something was wrong. i ended up standing there with a bizarre smile on my face tring to get daves attention. finally he ran over and helped me to the side-lines. oh my goodness, there is a reason i'm not athletic. seriously, you can hurt yourself! i sat the entire game out with an ice pack. fortunately my sweet son prayed for me to feel better and that the rest of the team would be safe as they continued to play. we lost.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

67 days

lilly asked me today to count how many days until florida. we looked at the calendar and counted...67 days! this year will be our fifth year heading to our favorite getaway, don pedro island, for two weeks. we have some dear friends who have opened their condo to us over the years and we have enjoyed it to its fullest. these trips and memories remind me how important vacations as a family are. sometimes i can't believe how much the kids remember from our times and how much they love remembering every trip.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

therapy

i see a counselor. i actually have an appointment tomorrow morning with jodi boyd at westshore integrative health. therapy/counseling has been an amazing journey for me and i am so thankful to have the opportunity and insurance coverage which allows me to see her and share my heart every other week. my road to ongoing counseling began as a quest to "fix" my insomnia when the traditional route of medical care wasn't working. now, over a year later, i can't help but look at counseling as a necessity for the well being of my mind, heart and soul. i have found it to be a safe and unapologetic place for me to just "be" and learn how to empower and love myself enough to move beyond my own anxieties and live life to the full potential that God created me to. i love to talk about my experiences with counseling and am very open about the fact that i see someone and have encouraged many a friend to at least consider seeing someone. out of curiousity, what are your thoughts on counseling/therapy? why do you think there is, at times, such a negative stigma with the idea of seeing someone about the way you feel?